Today I had a test. It went _______ so I left the room feeling ______. I’m thinking when I get the mark I’ll ____ because I’m ______ and don’t ______ a plan.
Two options:
a) terribly, upset, cry, lost, have –> Today I had a test. It went terribly so I left the room upset. I’m thinking when I get the mark I’ll cry because I’m lost and don’t have a plan.
b) quickly, accomplished, smile, living, need –> Today I had a test. It went quickly so I left the room feeling accomplished. I’m thinking when I get the mark I’ll smile because I’m living and don’t need a plan.
I’ll choose b and while I may have chosen some wrong answers on today’s test, I’m certain that choosing a positive attitude is the right answer. If I look at this whole course and dip into the Nutrition Program as a learning experience, I can see it for the mistake lesson it’s been!
I say this because I truly truly believe that I’ve learned so much about myself in the last few months that I would not go back and change it for the world (although when I was trying to learn what kind of bacteria make what kind of cheese and why there is something called carboxymethylcellulose in your ice cream–side note, ew–I might have been singing a different tune). If it weren’t for me taking this class in summer school, I’d have been fully into the foods program come fall. I’d have been struggling with these decisions and I’m sure I would have come to the same conclusion–that just because I don’t have a set plan and just because I don’t see a conventional path ahead of me doesn’t mean I don’t have an awesome future ahead of me–but I’m so glad I did it now. 
With so many things, I feel like I’m just in the right place right now.
My training, for instance.I’m going to do a triathlon in July (same one as my first last year). I’m going to go on the bike trips I want to. I’m going to do Tough Mudder in August. I’m going to teach classes. I’m heading to yoga shortly because I love how I feel when I do it. This is all good.
My eats, too, have changed. I’m not listening to what someone tells me to do blindly. I’m taking it as advice and making mistakes and using them as lessons to figure out what feels good to me. Lately that’s been plenty of whole foods and it’s amazing to me that it took so long to come to that realization: eat real food. I thank the vegan books, the paleo books, the blogs, the podcasts, the everything I’ve been exposed to and I thank the learning about all the not so real foods during this course I’m in.
dinner tonight: eggs with kale, onion, potatoes, and some avocado and flaxseed on top
lunch today: carrots, apple, cranberries, and chicken on spinach
I know that I’ve got something to say here and I feel one of “those posts” coming on soon, but I know I’m still wrapping my head around this. Right now all I can say is that I’m happy to be where I am.
How do you handle a tough test?
Have you ever changed your major/life plan/career? How’d it go?
This is so wonderful. I think where you are is absolutely amazing. I love that idea that you learn from your mistakes. This post is beautiful.
nom nom nom i love the eggs-and-potatotes idea! brinner ftw! I’ve been meaning to do “brinner” for a long time now and then when it’s actually dinner time I forget rarr. Anyway on a more serious note, how is anyone ever going to get anywhere in life if you don’t make mistakes?!?! Careers and life plans are like your closet. You don’t just go to two or three clothing stores and buy all the shit that looks pretty, you go to probably 92349879580 stores, over a period of a few years, pick all the shit that looks pretty and probably have people hand you things that at first glance don’t look so pretty, and you try it on. Some of it fits you but wears out fast, some of it is just way too constricting, some looks terrible on you, and some things fit, look hella awesome, and last a long time. And that’s what your closet gradually becomes – a weeding out of all the things that don’t really suit you, an a collection of those hard-to-find and maybe-stumbled-upon pieces that look fantastic and withstand the test of time. So. you try on some academic programs, that’s the only way to find out whether or not they fit. The RD doesn’t fit! and that’s okay! move to Colorado and be a cycling bum with me (cuz let’s be real, that is, at the most basic level, exactly what I’m doing)! haha also, I’m sorry for that ridiculous analogy that likely made no sense….I haven’t had coffee yet….but anyway, yes, you are making “mistakes” and learning what works for you, aka you are doing life the right way. rock on.
That analogy was awesome! And reminds me of something my life coach told me about boys: when you go the the mall you try on a bunch of jeans (you date a bunch of people). Some of them don’t work and you don’t feel bad for not buying them (you date losers and don’t think twice about dropping em). You can’t beat yourself up over the ones you don’t choose. I hope I did that analogy justice. Its the same with our career exploration. You have to try before you know and you can’t have regrets holding you back!! Live with no apologies right?!