I think I have a hollow leg

…and I’m filling it with carbs.

Delicious and nutritious, ones, mostly!

Today Rachel was kind enough to give me a few of her fav books about vegetarianism. She is lucky to have a mom who is a dietitian (yay for RDs!) and thus a wealth of knowledge at her disposal. Rach is one of those people who knows her stuff–she doesn’t take being veggie lightly and she is really smart about her nutrition. It pays off because in case you haven’t heard, she is FAST. :)

I think after reading through them a bit when I was waiting at physio and while I had my acupuncture today I would like to buy “Becoming Vegetarian”…this one’s by an RD and I like how it’s written. After reading it (I ate it up, pardon the pun), I felt smarter and EXCITED about things. Sometimes I think when you consider becoming a vegetarian or making some changes to your diet, it can be scary and signal restriction. The truth is, deciding to go vegetarian or just in my case to eat less meat (I still say if I knew where it came from and felt okay with it, I’d be okay with eating some meat here or there) is a reason to EXPAND your options! I never thought of it that way…but when I wrote the article for Canadian Cycling Magazine about just this topic (I sent it off today so hopefully it comes out in June/July’s issue!), I got that from one of the guys I interviewed–you actually end up LOOKING for variety and things get delicious.

I also noted something: I really really really depend on nut butter and nuts to get me through. My LARA bars are made up of nuts and dates, mostly. So that means usually 2 meals and at least one of my snacks involves nuts and nut butters. I think I’m worrying too much about getting enough protein, which is kind of a waste of time (deficiencies are rare). The vegan cyclist I interviewed said total calories and especially carbs are the nutrients to focus on getting enough of. So I started to think and I really realized that I am for some reason not eating as many carbs as I could, should, might need to.

So naturally, that translated into a hungrier me. Or maybe it was just the really good swim I had this morning? I dare say I felt fast! I think I found my rhythm with the set and I haven’t swam in a few days since the pool was closed so it just felt good to be in the water from the second I dove in.

Speaking of diving in, here we go with the eats I tried to fill that hollow leg with:

Before swim, I snarfed a bowl of yogurt (and had coffee, obvs):

After the super duper awesome swim, I was hungry for my overnight oats (which were a mix of porridge oats, cocoa, almond milk, a banana, and almond butter).

My lunch was good—a cheese and spinach sandwich spread with light mayo plus some carrot sticks on the side– but didn’t fill me up for long, so I ate an apple as dessert.

I had an afternoon snack attack and dug out a Clif bar I’ve been saving for just such an occasion. It’s been a while since I’ve had one of these bad boys, and I used to reserve them for when I was about to train/when I was on my bike/etc. but I realize that’s a food rule and it’s based on…nothing?

I ran errands this afternoon (bank, returns, retail therapy where I forgot to buy the things on my list but got a new lulu tank and a few headbands instead – but it’s justifiable because I just picked up the money I’ve made working at the Gazette over the last few months that I FORGOT I was getting paid for) and another snack attack struck. I was planning on making a new recipe tonight and needed millet (I’ll keep you in suspense til I make it) so I went in Bulk Barn. Going in there ravenous is a bad idea. I bought a bunch of goodies – tahini (a new food for me), the millet I needed, oat bran, spelt flour (I want to make muffins), kamut cereal, rice cakes, and some chocolate – and I downed about half the pack of rice cakes. Maybe a third. It happens—they’re mostly air.

pantry, consider yourself stocked!

When I got home I was too hungry to cook the recipe I had in mind so I went with an old faithful instead: my squash mix with almond butter/almond milk and spinach, raisins, and maple syrup. And yes I do eat it all together, and it is DELICIOUS.

Three chocolate nibbles and I’m set—the leg is finally full. Assume homework-ing blogging position on my futon, with a second cup of tea.

That’s the excitement of my Monday munchies. I went ahead and put them in my FitDay account to see how I did on the carb/energy front. Turns out I was pretty spot on for my activity level…even though I felt like I ate non stop! It was a little high on the fat % but that’s like I said–so much nut butter–and I am not willing to worry about it! Note to self: listen to your body cuz it’s working.

In other news, I got into Ryerson today. Acceptance letter folded and put with the other ones.

I am going to go and decline the offers all at once. It’s a big step! Thanks for the support. It’s still tough to hear people congratulate me and then say I’m not going, but it’s not so bad now that I’ve decided to be proud of my decision. Owning it! :) The more I talk about it and think about it, the more I’m getting excited for it, actually! Even the summer school part will be good. :)

Eating Disorders Awareness Week: Books

When I look back on my recovery and how I got to a healthy place, I know that all the books I read–both informative, self-help, and just plain old inspirational–had a major influence on me! I’m proud of my bookshelf–I’ve often heard that you can judge a lot about a person just by checking out their bookshelf (Kobo library these days?)…I’ll take it!

Here’s a list of the some of the books that helped me most. Note that this list is FAR from complete, but if you read even one of these and take something from it, yahoo!:

  • Life Without Ed – Jenni Schaefer When I think of the books that really really really jump started my recovery, Jenni’s come to mind. I had a chance to meet her at a speaking event last year and it was amazing, to say the least. She is living proof that you can be fully recovered and thrive and in her words, “It’s okay to be happy!” I really think the way she writes–in short, easy to take in pieces–is useful. Since recovery can be scary, breaking it down into little challenges (and victories) is so helpful.
  • Goodbye Ed, Hello Me – Jenni Schaefer … I love that this book addresses finding yourself after coming out of the eating disorder. Who are you? Who do you want to be? I really realized after reading this that the eating disorder opened up a lot of possibility (scary but good) in my life: who did I want to be?
  • Women, Food, and God – Geneen Roth … I think whether or not you take any eating or self help insight from Roth’s writing, you’ll find it easy to read and easy to follow along with. That being said, I think it’d be next to impossible to read her stuff without connecting to it. She’s been through a lot and describes it honestly and eloquently.
  • Appetites – Geneen Roth
  • Overcoming Overeating – Geneen Roth
  • Intuitive Eating – Evelyn Tribole and Elyse Resch … A bible of sorts. I think if we could all find a way to eat intuitively, we’d all be at our happy weights. I come back to this book when I need a reminder or when I’m feeling particularly driven to control what I’m eating in one way or another. 
  • Telling Ed No! and Other Practical Tools to Conquer Your Eating Disorder - Cheryl Kerrigan
  • It’s Not About Food: Change Your Mind, Change Your Life, End Your Obsessions with Food and Weight – Carol Emery Normandi and Laurelee Roark
  • Overcoming Overeating - Jane R. Hirschmann, Carol H. Munter - Read this one along with “Intuitive Eating” and I think you’ll be much closer to finding your true hunger again.
  • Food: The Good Girl’s Drug – Sunny Sea Gold - This one was awesome, and it’s pretty new. Written by the editor at healthygirl.orgthis one really really really made recovery seem worth it and promo’d the importance of reading books as part of the author’s personal recovery. Hence this list!
  • Perfect Girls, Starving Daughters: The Frightening New Normalcy of Hating Your Body -  Courtney E. Martin – Thinking about the phenomenon of body hating that is so rampant and thus is normalized in our society makes us realize that it’s not our fault but that there IS an alternative!
  • Thin is the New Happy – Valerie Frankel … A memoir that made me laugh but also made me think!
  • 8 Keys to Recovery from an Eating Disorder – Carolyn Costin and Gwen Schubert Grabb
  • Gaining: The Truth About Life After Eating Disorders – Aimee Liu
  • Eat, Pray, Love – Elizabeth Gilbert … Something about hearing a strong woman living her own life and about reading her indulgence in the pizza in Italy (a proper binge, if I’ve ever read of one) was really empowering. 
  • Food Rules – Michael Pollan … I know, RULES and FOOD in the same title seems scary. But this one, with rules like — don’t eat it if it’s the same in every language (i.e. Big Mac, Fritos, etc.) — isn’t about being obsessive but is based in common sense and takes a big picture approach to eating for our own health and the health of the planet and the world. 
One promise, please, guys: keep reading my blog even though I just gave you a bunch of reading material? Enjoy!

Any I missed?
Do you agree with any of my choices? Disagree?
Do you read much?